My Hiatus

It's been over a month since my last post, but I don't think a day has gone by when I haven't thought about things I would like to post on here.

Why haven't I posted these thoughts?

I don't really have a good answer or excuse for that but nevertheless I'm back. I feel like I've dealt with a lot emotionally over the past month, and while I am not to the point where I can confidently say I've completely dealt with my father's passing I am however at a much better place. What has perhaps been the most difficult part of all of this is just the fact that something that has been a constant in my life for 29 years is no longer here.

Each day progress is made, some days more than others but one thing is certain...life carries on. There is a Peter Gabriel song, I Grieve, that I have thought about often over the past month, it's from the City of Angels soundtrack. I remember the first few times I heard it and how it moved me to tears, it now has obviously taken on a whole new meaning to me.

It was only one hour ago
It was all so different then
Nothing yet has really sunk in
Looks like it always did
This flesh and bone
It's just the way that we are tied in
But there's noone home
I grieve...
for you
You leave...
Me
So hard to move on
Still loving what's gone
Said life carries on...
Carries on and on and on...
And on
The news that truly shocks
is the empty, empty page
While the final rattle rocks
Its empty, empty cage...
And I can't handle this
I grieve...
For you
You leave...
Me
Let it out and move on
Missing what's gone
Said life carries on...
I said life carries on and on...
And on
Life carries on in the people I meet
In every one that's out on the street
In all the dogs and cats
In the flies and rats
In the - and the -
In the ashes and the dust
Life carries on and on and on...
And on
Life carries on and on and on...
Life carries on and on and on...
And on
Life carries on and on and on...
Just the car that we ride in
The home we reside in
The face that we hide in
The way we are tied in
As life carries on and on and on...
And on
Life carries on and on and on...
Did I dream this belief
Or did I believe this dream
How I will find relief
I grieve...