It's been one of those months...

Yesterday, August 19, 2006, would have been my dad's 66th birthday. I couldn't bring myself to visit his grave...I've only been out there once for Father's Day and it's still too soon for me.

For the past month there has been a dark cloud hanging over me. I've missed more work than I should, which causes undue stress on my wife, but I just can't seem to shake this fuckin' thing.

This is my prayer, my desperate cry for a sweet release...

Hallelujah, we are on our way
Hallelujah, we are on our way to God
From Egypt lately come
Where death and darkness reign to seek our new
Our better home where we our rest shall gain
There sin and sorrow cease and every conflict’s o’er
There we shall dwell in endless peace and never hunger more

Jerusalem, our happy home

Would God I were in Thee
Would God my woes were at an end
Thy joy that I might see

We soon shall join the throng
Their pleasures we shall share
And sing the everlasting song
With all the ransomed there

There in celestial strains enraptured myriads sing
There love in every bosom reigns for God Himself is King

- David Crowder